Thanks for showing me that I'm missed when I don't blog guys!!!!
To tell you the truth - I've got to the posting page several times in the last week and really haven't known what to write. There is loads going on for me - my job is likely to change soon and that effects all sorts of things in my life, I've been thinking about all sorts of things but haven't really known the appropriateness to write them.
The thing though that I keep coming back to is: I love God! I'm very, very aware of his sustaining nature. I'm very, very aware of his call of obedience that leads to freedom. I love the way that his work in me leads to a lessening of the brokenness, lostness and darkness in my life.
Easy? Not at all. The adventure of life that brings fulfilment like nothing else? Absolutely!
Probably the words that in many ways sum up some of what's going on in me are in a letter that was written to me by someone who was quite important in my life in my late teens (so written 11 or so years ago now!).
"I am really proud of the way that you've set your heart and mind on the goal of making godliness the priority in your life - even when the sacrifices that you've had to make and the things that you've had to admit to yourself have been painful and difficult. Never let pride, the need to be liked and appreciated or the "easy way" tempt you into sacrificing that goal or the ernestness with which you pursue it. Never let it become less than the first priority in your life and never shy away from making the difficult decisions as ultimately this is the only path to the things that you are desiring the most. Only godliness can bring the sense of purpose, fulfilment and personal worth which we all need. Don't ever let this path become easy or comfortable - always look at your heart and circumstances and evaluate them honestly - it is only by doing this that you'll be able to know where God has brought you so far and where he is leading you next .... Continue in your thirst for learning about him & your desire to live that out in a life of actions that show to others that God is working in you each day to make you more like him. Also don't be afraid to show others that you are weak. Remember that the cross is the power of God to change and that God's grace is sufficient for you in all situations."
I'm sure that the person who wrote that wouldn't have known just how spot on those words were for me (nor that they would be on my blog more than 11 years later!) and wouldn't have a clue just how many times they have been words that have encouraged me on the path of discipleship.